A Little Discouraged

This morning I woke up like most days. Roll out of bed, go to the bathroom and weigh myself, 165. What?!?! I try it again, same thing. I was very down. I just wanted to go back to bed. What was the point of working out? I weighed the same as I did a week ago. Going back to bed looked real tempting by my shoes sitting in the bathroom were right there. I stood there thinking bed or workout? Bed, more sleep, wake up in 45 minutes, feel bad that I didn't workout. Workout, feel good about myself, only takes 30 minutes, probably won't fall asleep anyway. 2 minutes later, I was downstairs not wanting to use the elliptical. I just wasn't in the mood to bust my butt so I warmed up on the elliptical and did the surge with jumping jacks and jumping rope. While I was doing my workout I got thinking about my weight. Why is it not going down? I'm working out more, I'm eating healthy, I'm getting a good amount of sleep (for a mom of a 3 month old), I'm lifting 3 times a week. And that's when I got it. Silly me, muscle weighs more than fat. Then I started looking at my arms, yeah I guess there is more muscle there. Then I looked at my legs and oh, my quad dent is back (haven't seen that since CC and track days), hey there's my line for the quad/hamstring separation. Holy cow!!! Now I was totally pumped about doing my workout. I wanted to go longer lifting today but knew I had to beat my husband to the shower and get it in before the baby woke up hungry. Ah, another reason the scale wasn't what I wanted. I'm a breastfeeding mommy and hadn't been "milked" in awhile. Moooo. While in the shower I was thinking some more. It's easy to forget about gaining muscle and get obsessed with the number on the scale. A friend of mine weighed 150 lbs and looked like she weighed 125 lbs. She was pure muscle. That's the body I want. I was weighing myself everyday, I was obsessed. This morning in the shower I decided I'm not going to weigh myself until Christmas. There is no need to weigh everyday. All it does is pump you up when the number is lower and makes you feel really discouraged when it's up. That could be another reason for not dropping the pounds. Too much negative energy about how I'm not losing. If I don't weigh myself then it's a lot easier to put out the positive energy that I am fit and that I love my body.
Now, there is a difference from loving your body and doing what you can to take care of it (ie exercise, eat healthy) and this is the way my body is, I'll just accept it, open a can of diet soda, and plop down on the sofa and watch TV. That isn't love. Once you love yourself then you'll see a difference. It may take sometime, but it does work. Trust me. I lost 10 lbs after our daughter just by looking the the full length mirror and telling myself, out loud, "I love you, you are perfect, and you are beautiful."
Do this for a month and people around you will notice how good you look, how positive you are and you'll feel great.