Eeks

I've seemed to have dropped the ball when it comes to updating. My change of lifestyle seems to be taking a slight turn for the worse. With breastfeeding I really notice it because my little guy spits up a lot when I'm eating crap. I've been feeling a bit down this month and I know that shouldn't be an excuse for eating bad. I have some personal issues that I'm having to deal with and it's very hard. I'm just throwing my arm up and saying what is this all for? I've been exercising everyday but when I'm exercising I'm thinking about this issue of mine. I've been putting on this front that everything is peachy but its not so much. I had a very close friend of mine move away over the summer. At first it wasn't too hard but time is going by I'm missing this individual more and more. This person was like my best friend. Anytime I wanted to rant about something and my husband didn't understand or was tired of listening to me ( I can go on for days about things sometimes) this person would listen.
I know it sounds crazy like, how can someone miss another this much if they are just friends. Believe me it can happen. We worked together so I saw this person everyday. Now that we don't I'm lucky if I get to talk to this person once a month. They have a new job and a new baby.
Well, thank you for listening. Maybe this is all that I needed to do to get rid of this feeling and have my motivation restored.
I did go 2 weeks of eating very healthy and what got me on that was noticing that my baby spits up so one morning when we were getting ready to go I promised him that I was going to eat healthy. Anytime I was going to grab something bad I remembered that and there is something about breaking a promise to a 4 month old that just seems really wrong.
Anyone that find eating healthy a problem try what I did. Find someone that you can't break a promise to and promise you won't eat bad. It just might work.